I thought I had hemorrhoids...

Day 1:
Where to begin? I guess I will begin at the beginning (that's usually how it goes) cause as my good friend CG pointed out, the more times you repeat yourself, the more years off your life, and if we're calling a spade a spade, I don't have many of those to spare, lol. Y'all probably didn't think that was funny, but I did.

I started having rectal bleeding and mucus from my bottom 2 years ago, I thought it was hemorrhoids. I told my PCP who did a rectal exam when he did my pap smear and he said he didn't feel anything. He gave me some guiac stool sample cards and told me to pray about it. BTW, this is about the 5th major issue/decision on my care that I made that he told me to pray about. I didn't do the guiac cards because I knew I had rectal bleeding so I didn't see the point in wasting my time on those cards, plus, my PCP said the mucus could be related to diet. A year goes by (because I'm a great patient) and I'm still having these issues. I bring it up to my PCP again, and this time I do the guiac cards. For those of you not in the medical field, guiac cards test your poop for blood, pretty simple. I MADE SURE there was blood on the poop that I put on those cards....the PCP's nurse called and said everything is normal....really? So I decided that I will just live with this issue and change my diet and hope for the best....that lasted about a week. This year I went to Dr. Kapu for my yearly. I told her about my issues. She said she didn't see any hemorrhoids and they might be internal and she would send me to Dr. Kendrick (Thank God!). I went to see Dr. Kendrick on Monday May 6th. He did a digital rectal exam (he stuck his finger in my butt) and did a proctoscope (like a mini colonoscopy). He let me get dressed then came back in........He told me I have tumor. I was set up for a colonoscopy for today and now here we are. I have rectal cancer. Yeah it sucks, but it is what it is. Please don't boo hoo for me cause feeling sorry for me does nothing but get on my nerves. I crave normalcy. This will be my blog to keep all yall updated. This is so surreal.