Chemo Day 3

I am so sorry I didn't post yesterday, I got bad news and needed to process before I talked to yall. I went to see Dr. Kendrick and he said that the tumor is right on my sphincter muscle and I will have to have a colostomy! I went back to the office and Dr. A told me that was worse case scenario because who knows what the tumor will look like when I'm done with chemo and radiation. I've already mentally prepared myself for needing one. At least this way if I need one I'm not shocked and if I don't need one great. One of my good friends is the wound care/ ostomy nurse at the hospital I work at I have learned so much from her over the years so that helps. I called her today and we talked about irrigation, that's where you train your bowels to just drain at a certain time daily or every other day when ever you want to empty it. If I could do that I wouldn't have to wear a bag everyday, I would just cover my stoma just in case. They make all kinds of neat things for stoma users now days. I even saw a cute tattoo that a girl put around hers on Pinterest. Chris is okay with it. I Think he just doesn't want to raise these little turds (lol) by himself so whatever keeps me alive is fine by him. I haven't really had any effects from the chemo and radiation, I did fall asleep for an hour earlier cause I was dog tired. I might just post if anything happens from here on out because I'm hoping for a boring treatment. My next doctor's appt is June 5th. Speaking of doctor's I need to make a correction, Dr. Wiginton said he read my CT Scan on Monday. Alright kids, I'll let ya'll know if anything else happens.